Monday, June 2, 2014
Feeling Like Me Again
Even though I ran, I felt like other things kept slipping through the cracks. I felt behind at work, like my mind was not really there. I felt like that hamster in the wheel running and running and getting nowhere. I could not find the time to strength train and nagging things that I usually take care felt like they were piling up in the chaos of my life. Recently, as things have finally settled down, I feel like myself. Regaining more of my life. Last week I felt like I caught up on old work projects and finally actually felt fully engaged. Amazing what you can accomplish when you are really paying attention! I am not a person who gets overwhelmed by to do lists or obligations but lately everything seemed like one thing too many. These will seem small and insignificant but this weekend I knocked some thingsthat had been hanging around off my mental to do list.
I got my hair cut and dyed (yes that is a necessity just ask my husband). I got the car into the shop. Good thing the main cylinder that powers most of the car was wearing out and the belt was stretched out. The car runs like new and the fixed they oil leak that mocked me everyday. It is amazing how good you feel when your car is taken care of and running great. I think it has to do with the freedom that symbolizes. If I needed to take off at the last minute I could. Don't ask! That need arises out of a past it would take20 therapists to unravel. Suffice to say I am girl who values her independence and freedom. I also got my cats' health check ups scheduled. They have been on the back burner as we dealt with ever bigger and more devastating issues.
I rejoined the world of gym goers to beef up my strength training. I know this will make me feel stronger and make a better runner. Plus I have really enjoyed being back at the gym. I have gotten time to get back to reading and I finished 4 books last month. I also have gotten back to blogging, something I enjoy doing. I also am now able to get back to follow you all on your journeys on your blogs. Lastly, today I did something that I have been talking about for months. I started back at the chiropractor. I have always valued chiropractic as a way to stay healthy and improve my running. I stopped going almost year ago and I have really missed it. My new Chiropractor is a runner and personal trainer so he totally gets runners. He got all excited when he realized I was coming in because I believe in chiropractic as a preventive health method.
After months of feeling like I was just keeping ahead of the boulder rolling towards me, I now recognize myself again and feel like I am back on a good path. Just a reminder that all things pass good or bad. Just hang in there and keep a positive attitude. I hope things are going well for you and if not I understand and you are in my thoughts. Like running, it is one foot in front of the other until it feels effortless again.
Today I am grateful for the many things I have in my life.